How to feel terrible?

Hello, Do you wanna feel like shit?

Okay so there's some conditions which you have to fulfill to come to feel like a complete and utter piece of shit.

Step 1:

Wreck your sleep.

Try to have very little sleep and very inconsistent sleep for a week. Wake up till like 3am on one day and sleep till 8pm on the other day. This tells your brain that there is no order in your life.

Step 2:

Don't have anything to do.

Don't get busy in anything. Don't focus on anything in particular.

Step 3:

Get distracted constantly.

Try to live by the quote "A distracted mind can never accomplish something". Take 30 min breaks after studying for 40 minutes. Scroll reels endlessly. Consume short form content and get motivated by it. Watch lots of content that gets your mind to set unrealistic expectations with yourself(looks, status, personality, hobbies, physique etc).

Step 4:

Live in the same room.

Don't move. Don't go to the gym. Hell don't go outside of your room. Smell like shit. Don't take a batch. Rot in your own bed. Don't wear clean clothes. Feel out of place.

Step 5:

Watch corn, flood your brain with copius amounts of superficial pleasure

Betray yourself. Lie to yourself. Justify doing that by saying to yourself, "This is the last time I am gonna do this", "That made me feel complete", "It ends with this", "I am doing this to fix my libido", "Let's watch some normal corn" etc. 

Step 6:

Don't do social interactions

Lock yourself in a room. Don't talk to nobody. Let your thoughts consume you. Ruminate endlessly. Call yourself a loser all the time. 

Step 6:

Have no sense of time

It's easy once you have accomplished all of the above steps.

Step 7: (optional)

Be sick

Have some illness to justify a terrible day. Don't try to get up and clean yourself. Be self defeating.

If you follow all the steps, you will successfully achieve what I call "the modern way to kill yourself slowly".

After following all these steps consistently, you would sometimes want to kill yourself. Don't worry, that's natural. Convince yourself that it's just because of your past and not because of your terrible habits. Convince yourself that you'll change only to fall back to your old habits.

Now your might be saying "holy shit Aryan, this feels like a life of a failure", and you are mostly right. Someone might not be a failure because their lives look like this but if their lives look like this they might one day become so incapable that they'll feel like they have no appendages. 

No one has the ability to call anyone a failure. This feeling of having failed in life comes from within. It's one of our body's last ditch attempts to prevent itself from reaching a state of utter helplessness.

After a while, this becomes a positive feedback cycle. These terrible habits wreck your ability to reason, articulate, comprehend, remember, think and control yourself and your emotions which further make you fallback to those same habits that you begun with. It's a feedback loop from hell as mark manson calls it. Probably not the same thing but resembles it as it's also a way to maximise misery.

Second part of this blog will tell you how to unfuck your life, ie how to come out of this shit cycle.

One more thing I forgot to mention, this cycle of misery lasts for a specific amount of time, which depends on how to recover from this. It might last a full day, or 2 days, or an entire weekend or sometimes for an entire week. 

Alright, I think you get the idea well. 

Peace. 🤟